Ani zocher ha col. Et koolam sh’e hayu krovim ve ketztat me aileh sh’e hayu rechokim. Mi sh’ani lo zocher, lo norah.

Ani chochev sh’e ani zocher et ha bachura ha zot. He oh sa dj’ing?

La’kach li shni-ya aval ani zocher sh’e haya bobcat ba kibbutz k’she samu et ha kvalim bishvil ha telefonim. Le’famim hayu notnim lany lirkav al ze k’she heeviru chol. Ratziti linhog et ze ki chashavti ze k’mo tank.

Ani lo yachol lir’ot otcha k’ orech din. Nidhamti ke’tzat she hitchalta. Meh ha yomim shelanu beyachad ani cho’shev sh’ani lo ya cholti l’damyen ma ratzita m’ ha chaim chutz mi ma sh’ ata. Ani lo yodeya im ze hegyoni ma sh’e katavti po aval lo norah.

Im yiihiyeh kesef bishvil seret sh’e chaver sheli rotza la’asot seret alay, chozer levaker a’chrei esrim shanah. Ani lo kol kach rotzeh lahasot et zeh. Ani lo ohev kol kach lachzor l’mekomot sh’ garti harbeh z’man. Aval Adi rotzah lahaa’sot et zeh ve ha chaverah sheli, Tinet, me’od rotzah levaker b’aretz as ani k’mo kelev tov. L’irot otcha od pa’am ani choshev ze y’hiyeh tov.

Ka sheh ke’tzat l’hazbir ma ani oseh achshav. Lef’amim ani b’koshi yodeha atzmi ma holech. Ani gar be Berlin ve lefamim yored le Geneva bishvil ha’avodah sh’ani oseh. Harbeh tisot m’ir l’ir, mishtatef im hotza’ot ve melamed ech la’haasot ma sh’ani oseh im a machshev ba hotza’ot ha eyleh.
Aval ba makor, ani mishtadel la’haasot ma sh’e ha lev omer li. Ze me’od kashe. Aval ani choshev sh’s ze mishtalem.

Moozar ma sh’karah im Oudi ve Neri. Tamid chashavti sh’e hem ahavu et ha chaim ba kibbutz. Lefachot ze ma sh’e hem amru li az. Sh’mati sh’ David gam gar b’Germania. Ma im zeh? Zeh tze’elonim bishvilcha.

I’ma katva sefer al ha y’aldut she’la ba mirchama:

http://www.miriamkatin.com/

Aba b’pensia.

Ach sh’eli oved bishvil eizah firma anakit shel orech di’nim. Hu m’chutan v’ein lahem yeladim. Ani lo medaber ito bichlal achshav. Hayu lanu ba’ayot v’ein li koach yoter bishvil zeh. K’mo sh’ha imah sh’eli ohevet l’haagid: ein davar.

Ani? Ein le yeladim ve’ Tinet v’ani lo metachnenim al zeh. Yesh l’anu et ha d’varim sh’anachnu rotzim la’haasot v’zeh harbeh. Metachnenim mtaishehu lagur me’ chutz la ir. Aval nir’eh. Oulai od chamesh shanim? Oulai yoter karov mi’ zeh.

Ani zocher:
Stalin
Bosmat
Concert Kaveret
Oni
Ha chaverah ha m’shugaat shel oni sh’ ratztah lishkav iti ve amarti la ‘lo.’
Ha bachura sh’shneinu hishkavnu. Atah zocher et zeh?

Lamadeti mashe’hu al atzmi ba zman ha zeh. Ani adayin mamshich lil’ mod me hazman ha zeh ve kol hazmanim lifnei v’acharei. Kol kach harbeh sipurim, v’lichtov achshav al zeh noten l’machshavot goof.

Ani m’kaveh sh’zeh lo yoter mi dai bishvil cha ma sh’ani kotev poh.

Ani m’vin lama atah lo rotzeh la’haazov et haaretz. Eifoh Zebrah? Lo shm’aati al hamakom ha’zeh lifnei oh achrei sh’dibarta al zeh al ha kasehtah sh’shalachta. Aaron v’ani hayinu machshivim l’zeh. Ani lo yodeha aifo zeh achshav.

Ani tzarich l’sayem achshav.

Chaverchah,
ilan bar yochanan

I recall a story by Robert Crumb about his days in San Francisco during the late 60s. At some point the concept of using LSD to open the mind and developing ones inner self turned into more of a horse race of how much of it one could take without self destructing.

This scenario reminds me a bit of how people in the VJ scene tend to focus on what kind of rig they are using as opposed to how they are using it. A quote similar to this one can be found on many of the VJ oriented forums:

“I gotta get me a MacPro with 4 outputs, Max ram, SSD hard drive and 4 TH2Go’s! Yeah baby!”

Around 2001 I attended a class about video broadcast technology at the Sony campus in San Jose, California. The gentleman who was teaching the class was a veteran of the Broadcast industry, responsible for bringing D1 to CBS. Another VJ friend of mine, Owen Bush, called people like him ‘The umpah loompahs of the broadcast industry.’ Their primary goal is getting the signal to the consumer as consistently as possible with the bandwidth available regardless of what is being broadcast.

This obsessiveness is commendable. When the material being presented requires it to remain consistent, no drop frames, no unexpected causes, a small glitch can really take a lot a way from the experience.

However it is said that the question never arises what it is that is being presented? In fact, this was a statement posed by our teacher at Sony. It was not a question. When he said it there was a pause. He stared at us. We stared back. And the lesson about whatever it was, some particular piece of the pie, continued.

About a month ago my friend Adi proposed that we make a short form piece with her friend Alice in her extended family inheritance Chateau in Switzerland. The basic outline was that Alice would be a ghost killer. After she sent me the first rough draft we started to evolve the plot a little and landed on a marble obsessed ghost that would be played by me. We shot the whole thing in less then two days.
It was all very energizing and inspiring. Only three of us, a camera, audio recorder and gorilla pod.

After the weekend we all met up together again in Berlin and met with our editing and sound person, Jenine. She knocked out a rough cut for us, practically over night. Her work revealed some structural problems with the ending. So we got the camera and shot new material. Budget? What budget?

The project is now in the loving hands of Jenine.